maybe….

i dont know where could this feeling of mine can take me…. nothing is really the same but not my passion for writting. maybe its just my outlet… maybe its just where i could say not whats in my mind but whats inside my heart… today as i write, is already christmas. i know this day is good enogh of me to write about something, and as always it is about love and how im such a fool for it. i dont know what got into my nerves for me to opent that post for my ex’s current(i am sooooo inlove with her)that i have to read it all. my heart shattered, i know i do not have any rights to separate them but i know deep inside she loves me to and from the fact that somehow she loves me , it gave me a strenth to fight, to live.

i am writting about something….and is definitely not like this i dont knoew hot to continue it so i am reading it again and again then i noticed , indirectly it was my story, and i am here again to love tim gonna bring her back to my arms…. and maybe…………………………………

just maybe……………………. she will be mine again

i do not know…. my heart… its weary

for a long time my heart didnt dare to beat… i know it grew tired …i know, i just know.

i have waited a long time for it to beat again, i tried to force it but it just wont. 

sometime this year, almost recently, it started to beat again; to love again, being aware that life, it is really short, realizing that maybe sooner or later , we’ll die.

i dont know if it is wrong to be inlove with someone you have loved in the past specially when you know that she has someone,someone much greater than me.

every night, i ask my self why am i not like him, why cant i be the one that she’ll love and all. 

my heart… its crying, wishing that they’ll be separated . 

my heart…. as i can feel , is weary , and i hope that it wouldnt stop beating just like before 

and just now i realized , its the same person that made me love and made me halt 

sana sakin na lng  xa   i love you

keep on shining